Ninety-two pages built as eight rooms you can wander: keeping her memory, telling the story of losing her, the complicated feelings nobody lets us say, letters to her, and a year of monthly check-ins. With somatic practices from the therapy room for when the waves come, handwritten whispers in the margins, and one page that has no prompt at all. It trusts you.
Sound familiar?
You reach for the phone to call her, and the reaching does not stop just because she is gone.
The world moved on in a few weeks. You are still her daughter every single day.
Maybe it was complicated. You miss her and you are angry with her, and nobody makes room for both.
You are afraid of forgetting: her voice, her sayings, the way she came through a door.
This journal is somewhere for all of it to go. Eight rooms for the memories, the story, the complicated feelings, and the love. No silver linings, no timelines, no religion built in, and real room to write on every page.
“I lost my own mother when I was young, and I went looking for a book like this. I could not find it, so I spent my career learning how to write it. Your mother was your first home. This journal is for the love that does not end.”
Angela Schellenberg · Grief, Trauma & Attachment-Focused EMDR & Equine Therapist
Think of it as a house you can wander. Go in order, or open to whatever room matches the day. Skip anything. Return to anything. No door locks behind you.
one
Memory-keeping: her sayings, her recipe, her hands, the story you never want to forget. The details you are afraid of losing, kept safe.
two
The story of how you lost her, at your pace. Including a page for traumatic loss, written by a trauma therapist who understands what that does to a body.
three
Waves, weather reports, triggers, and where grief lives in your body. Plus somatic steadying practices: grounding, the long exhale, the butterfly hug, and walking as bilateral movement.
four
The room most grief journals skip. For estrangement, for the mother you needed and did not get, for missing someone who hurt you. Both can be true.
five
Her birthday, your birthday, Mother’s Day, the anniversary, the milestones she will miss, and the ordinary Tuesday that turned out to be about her.
six
Ten guided letters, including the angry one, the thank you, and the one she would write back.
seven
Continuing bonds: rituals, what you keep, what you pass on, things to do with her still, and who you are becoming.
eight
Twelve monthly check-ins, one small visit at a time, for the first year or any year.
A 48-page guided PDF, delivered to your inbox the moment you purchase. Print it or write in it digitally. It is yours to keep, revisit, and finish in whatever season it takes.
$29
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Goes with
The Grief & Trauma Workbook, Angela’s signature guide to how grief can be trauma. Many daughters work with both: the workbook to understand what is happening in your body, the journal to keep the love somewhere safe.
This journal is companionship and self-reflection, not psychotherapy, and is not a substitute for care from a licensed professional. If your grief feels bigger than a book, that is not failure, that is information: please reach out to a qualified professional or the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline. The somatic practices inside (including the butterfly hug, a gentle bilateral tapping technique from EMDR) are offered for everyday steadying, not as treatment.